The Accidental Wife by Sara Islam

Chapter 123

| stayed at the hospital for three days. They needed to make sure that | was okay. Silas didn't leaveduring

those three days except when the nurses told him to do so at night. admit, I'm enjoying his company, but | don't

feel anything towards him. Yes, I'm more than grateful for his help, but shouldn't | feel love for him? The kind of

love that would makewant to throw myself in his embrace the moment | see him. The kind of love that would

makelong for his kiss. | caught myself one tthinking about how his lips tasted against mine, but it was

mere curiosity. He has been very considerate with me. Yes, he hugs me, holds my hand and kisses my cheek, but

not once has he tried to kiss me. Is he waiting forto give him the green light? Am | supposed to make the

first move or ask him to kiss me? "You remember me, right?" Lily askswith fear in her voice when | walk

inside our home. "Of course | do,

| tell her. "Aren'tShe towardswhen | say that. | wince when into and quickly apologizes. Mum and Dad

didn't bring Lily and Holden to the hospital because the whole family has been trying to keep a low profile ever

since the accident took place. There were a lot of reporters in front of the hospital this morning. | was not sure

how they learned that | was leaving, but Mum toldthey had been coming on a daily basis, trying to catch any

photos for the family.

My right ankle is fractured, so my leg is in a cast. With the help of my dad, | walk to the living room. | take a seat

on the couch and stretch my legs. Silas was withthis morning when | left the hospital, but he said that he

needed to go pick his sister up because she wanted to see me.

I'm still not used to being around him all the time. I'm not sure if whatever I'm feeling is ssort of discomfort

or if this all just seems foreign tobecause my mind cannot accept that we're now dating, but I think | need

my distance. The thing is, | don't know how to tell him that without hurting him. He has been absolutely

considerate and nice to me, so causing him the least amount of pain is the last thing | want to do.

"Here you go." Kendall handsa glass of strawberry juice before taking a seat beside me. "You've got a lot on

your mind, she says, looking at me.

"Can you blme?" | inhale. "I'm perplexed and... | hate how | feel that there's a big chunk of my life missing."

"That's understandable. You don't have to feel bad because you feel like that. | can help you out with anything

you want," she tells me.

"Rosie!" | hear my brother's voice calling my nthe second he steps inside the house. | know that he had

soccer practice. That's why he wasn't hwhen I first arrived.

"Hey buddy," | say with a smile, handing my juice to Kendall before hugging Holden.

"lI was so worried about you," he says, making my heart tingle. "You're okay now, right?"

"I'm all right, Holden. My memory is just a little bit fuzzy, but I'm sure that I'm going to get it back," | tell him. I'm

not sure if I'm going to get my memory back or not, but | want to assure my brother that there's nothing to worry

about. | cannot push away the doctor's words about the possibility of not getting back my memory

"What can't you remember?" he wonders. "You can remember us, right?"

"Of course, | can remember you, but I cannot remember the last two years," | explain.

"We can make you a notebook of everything we remember about the last couple of years and give it to you to

read. Maybe this can help you out," Lily suggests when she joins us. Her words bring a smile to my face. | love

how considerate my siblings are.

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"Thank you, Lil. | think that would be great," | tell her. | love the look of encouragement she has in her eyes.

My siblings decide to leavewith my best friend for a while. There are a lot of questions | want to ask her, but

I don't

know which ones to start with!

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"Silas toldthat | now have lots of friends at college. He even withowedpictures. Am | friends with a lot of

people now?" ask that | have never been surrounded by a huge group of friends

when he introduced you to the team, you becfriends with sof them and their girlfriends too. You also

have a friend called Sabrina. She has the smajor as you. There's another friend who is called Everest. Silas

is not too fond of him though." "Why isn't Silas fond of him?" | frown as | inquire about that guy | don't remember

anything about. "Silas has always thought that Everest has feelings for you," my best friend fillsin. Was my

college life tic? | have a feeling that many exciting events took place and I'm really irritated that | can't

remember anything. | really wish all of this is temporary. | hate not being in t in the know.

As we're talking, the doorbell rings and the maid goes to open the door. "Where's Rosie?" | hear Aniyah's voice.

"I'm here!" | call out. | hear her running towardsbefore I get to see her. My mouth curls into a huge smile

when | see the balloons she's holding and the chocolate basket. "Oh my God, Aniyah. This is so thoughtful of

you!" | exclaim, opening my arms for the young girl. Thank you," 1

I'm so glad you're okay," she murmurs as she holds onto me.

"Hello, Cusay, gently caressing her hair. "Holden and Lily are upstairs. Do you want to join them?" | ask and she

nods.

"All right. I'm going to leave you to catch up. I will

Silas says as he wraps one arm around my shoulders and kisses the top of my head. Why isn't he kissingon

the lips? "How are you feeling?" he asks, beside me.

"Why haven't you kissed me?"ting down pass by tomorrow," Kendall says, standing up. After givinga quick

hug and saying goodbye to Silas, she leaves.

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He looks taken aback by what I've just said, but | want to know why he hasn't done it yet. What's stopping him

from kissing me? Aren't | his girlfriend? Shouldn't he want to kiss me?

"I want to kiss you more than anything, Rosie, but | don't know how I'm supposed to act around you. | don't know

the boundaries you now have or how you see us," he tells me. | hate the evident frustration in his voice.

"Kiss me, Silas," | softly demand. The way he closes the space between us in less than a second and his lips

meet mine. He cups my cheeks with his hands and | wen my hand into the back of his hair, feeling his soft hair

against my fingers. Kissing Silas feels weird, but it doesn't feel bad. | feel like something is wrong, but | don't

know what it is. | don't know what is missing. Could it be my feelings for him?

He slowly pulls away and | feel his eyes searching my face for something. | don't want to look him in the eyes,

because | don't know what to tell him.

"You don't... you don't feel anything for me, right?" He is trying to sound natural but the pain in his voice doesn't

escape my notice.

just need stime. Can you givethat?" My heart is beating so fast.

"Of course, Rosie. Tellwhat you want, and | will do it." His smile isn't real, and | don't like it. | don't like the

pain in his eyes. I'm not used to Silas being like that.

"Silas, I'm not breaking up with you. | just need you to walkthrough our relationship and be patient with me,"

I tell him.

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| don't want to lose Silas. | know | may be selfish, but part ofknows that | need him because he is a big part

of the period | cannot remember.

He reaches for my hand and brings it to his mouth to kiss it. "We will do anything you want, Rosie," he assures

me. Despite the confusion I'm drowning in, I'm certain that being with Silas will providewith the safety and

security I'm currently looking for.